Its like I have to seriously go NO CONTACT in order for people to contact me and give-a-damn. They'll go, hangout, have a blast, while I'm bored over the weekends but once they don't hear from me they send me all sorts of texts or calls saying 'Hey dude, what's up? Haven't heard from you?' Sometimes no one will call me for the longest time unless I go no contact. What I hate is what I just stated and I don't get it. Now, listen, I'm not saying that I need to be invited to every event, hangout or whatever because I know some friends have other groups of friends whom they hangout with, different groups of people etc, and I'm totally okay with it. I don't think anyone likes to invite themselves anywhere. I hate inviting myself to hang sometimes, even if they don't mind but I just feel intrusive when I do that. Sometimes they'll hangout with their group of friends with someone their annoyed with but won't invite me out. I know for a fact I'm a cool guy, I'm easy going and probably the most fun person. I never get on my friends cases, never bother them about wanting their company, or needing their attention but it'll be nice if my friends would consider me sometimes when hanging out. Like this really pisses me off and then if I bring it up to them, I'll probably come off as needy but then I hear them sometimes complain about the same thing I'm complaining about but about THEIR other friends!!! I don't know what ass backwards world I live in sometimes, I really don't. Its like, if you want me to come, why didn't you invite me? Like, they'll tell me like its nothing 'Oh yeah, yesterday we went cliff jumping dude!' knowing whatever they're doing is something that I highly enjoy and then proceed to tell me 'I should have joined'. What ticks me off even more is how I'll invite a lot of my friends out but they won't invite me to hangout when I ALWAYS invite them. Its annoying however, sometimes HIGHLY annoying when I contact a friend of mine, and I'll never hear back from them unless I contact them AGAIN sometimes. I don't expect my friends to contact me every second of the second or even day of the day, I know everyone has their own life and busy with their 'stuff'. My friends will talk to me about anything when they're in the dumps, I'll lift their spirits, take them out, let them ramble to me, hook them up, I'll be just an overall good person, what a friend is supposed to be. That feels great when I'm told I'm loved and appreciated and told that I'm a great person and I take it all in and keep myself grounded. The problem I have is that almost all my friends say 'You're an awesome friend', 'Thanks dude, you're the best, I owe you one', 'You're a true friend', 'I wish more friends were like you', 'You're the bomb' and I tend to get a lot of praise from my friends and all. You see, I know everyone is going to say I'm needy but its not entirely the case.

I would like for ONCE for people to invite me out, I'm seriously getting sick of helping people, looking out for people, inviting people, contacting people but then I get no contact, no invite, no nothing sometimes. Like, I'm tired of always making the initiative to hangout, make arrangements and decisions for everyone.

I tried putting this to the side for the past 2 weeks or so, but I'm tired of feeling forgotten.

Tired of being the initiater